23 - 11.22 Since seeing a John Ford film in JP’s class 8 years ago as an undergrad, I dreamed of going to see this landscape in real life, before I leave California… I am very lucky to have been in such a beautiful place at such a dark time. As my little heart can’t stand the horror lately, after being here I left feeling with some desire that I do still want a relationship with this country and land that I’ve lived most on, after all - a place like this, with its own dark history, could still exist as freedom and peace could.
I pray for Gaza to be returned, all land to be returned, an immediate ceasefire, an eternal protection over those who have been forced out from this lifetime these last seven weeks... these photos don’t show all the tears and silence along with an immense thanks.
23 - 11.18
our home for two nights
23 - 11.17
Arcosanti
23 - 11.12 “sometimes the lack of talent is not enough” - JP Gorin
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wrapped my thesis, quietly, at last
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incredible Carrie Mae Weems in class today
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attempting to fold a thousand cranes for my thesis and naturally they have become for Gaza too
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NY fall from my mother
23 - 10.22 “this is
sorrow for all
the dead and
the suffering.
all mother’s tears equal,
all children,
inocent,
beloved.”
patti smith
23 - 10.20 “Oh rascal children of Gaza. You who constantly disturbed me with your screams under my window. You who filled every morning with rush and chaos. You who broke my vase and stole the lonely flower on my balcony. Come back, and scream as you want and break all the vases. Steal all the flowers. Come back... Just come back..” Khaled Juma, a Palestinian poet from Gaza.
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23 - 10.16 truly disheartened and unclear how people can keep living without giving any acknowledgement to the Palestinian condition that as Americans, in this case, we are ALL complicit in making it happen and making it worse.
23 - 10.15
white hair paint test for a character to take a break
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Thousands out for Gaza yesterday in LA
23 - 10.14 “this is mourning everything. leaves are meant to fall, not children.” patti smith
23 - 09.22 amazing screening tonight of Godard’s King Lear introduced by Peter Sellars, who plays William Shakespeare the V in the film....
23 - 09.21
class on Disney campus
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23 - 09.17 Machorka-Muff (1962) - Straub Huilet
23 - 09.17 “The horror and despair at so much bloody flesh, nauseating in part, and in part very beautiful, was fairly equivalent to our usual impression upon seeing one another. Simone was tall and lovely. She was usually natural; there was nothing heartbreaking in her eyes or her voice. But on a sensual level, she so bluntly craved any upheaval that the faintest call from the senses gave her a look directly suggestive of all things linked to deep sexuality, such as blood, suffocation, sudden terror, crime; things indefinitely destroying human bliss and honesty.” Bataille
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photograph by Angi, who reached out over the internet earlier this year to be part of her portrait project. pleased with the randomness and how a stranger could capture something very close to me.
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pretty pastel by o
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23 - 09.05 Late August Early September (1998) - Oliver Assayas
23 - 09.04 Teiji Ito’s score for Maya Deren
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birthday gift from marcus
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fossilized coral-pebble
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23 - 08.29 happy birthday Ingrid Bergman <3
meaninglessly love to share a similar birthday with people i admire so much
23 - 08.28
farewells in San Francisco
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feeding eager chickens at Gianna’s farm in Oakland